Craving Wildness

The curtains on 2010 are starting to draw to a close. The show’s almost over for another year, the sets will soon return to back of stage and the cast will retire until a new production opens next year.

There is a sense of ‘endings’ in the air, and yet there is a balancing pull towards beginnings too – the hands are therefore poised to applaud both the finale of one performance and hang ready to welcome a new show to the stage.

While the year is not yet finished, it’s safe to say that it has been an adventure in many ways … perhaps one of the biggest I’ve embarked upon. The only real disappointment has been the many grand plans I was hoping to achieve over the last 12 months, which are still patiently waiting to come to fruition.

Things have been so busy, and busy is good, but not when things feel like they never seem to get done. It would perhaps be more true to say that I’ve been too busy. Not that I really mind, because having the energy to even think about being busy is something to wonder at and savour in itself …

Although now December has well and truly arrived, that desire to embrace calmness and a slower pace is growing steadily stronger … And so I find myself craving wildness – a sense of ‘space’ to indulge in unstructured creativity and think wild, messy, impractical, ridiculous, almost unimaginable thoughts.

A little closer towards the end of the year I’ll be spending some time just being for a while … Some time for productive things to have the chance to develop in a seemingly unproductive way. In this way I hope trees will become laden with creative fruit, flowers will bloom unexpectedly, and my garden of thoughts will grow rich and ready for harvest.

Have you allowed your mind to wander into the territories of untamed thoughts recently?


  1. jan

    I’ve always admired, but not envied, people with disciplined minds who had great accomplishments. Mine is like a butterfly fluttering from blossom to blossom. I do have fun though.

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Jan – I just don’t think I was gifted with that ‘disciplined’ mind gene … and while that can be frustrating, I think I’m happy being a bit ‘messy’ in my thoughts from time to time. The way you describe your mind ‘as a butterfly fluttering from blossom to blossom’ is very true of me as well (though you said it so beautifully). Having fun is surely a fantastic thing to achieve in this life Jan, and it sounds like you’ve got that goal already nailed! 🙂

  2. Caz

    What a wonderful year you have planned for next year – wildness, travel and being open to new experiences tempered with the discipline necessary to get things done (writing, crafting, gardening etc). Sounds perfect. I’m still formulating my thoughts about goals and plans for the coming year but I think the less is more dictum will play a big part in any plans…

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Caz – I’m definitely agreeing with you, that my year ahead is shaping up to be a rather exciting, challenging and fun-filled one! (a lovely combination I think).
      It’s certainly that time of year to start reflecting on the year that has almost gone, as well as making plans for what we hope to achieve in the new year. Life has a way of just rushing by.
      I look forward to hearing more about what goals / plans you come up with for yourself next year … I have no doubt you’ll find the right balance, ever so slightly skewed towards that wonderful ‘less-is-more’ philosophy! 🙂

  3. fairchildstreet

    Waiting for Dec 26, four weeks down the beach, no routine, long hot days and doing whatever we want. Oh and no screens whatsoever. Lovely post. Charmaine

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Charmaine – Oh I very much like the sounds of what you have planned over the summer. Four weeks down at the beach with no routine sounds like absolute (and well-deserved) bliss … it’s been so long since I’ve visited the ocean, and so I’m very much feeling the pull to linger there myself too.

      Taking a break from the online world can be so therapeutic for the mind and the soul … although I do hope you take some wonderful photos while you’re away to share with us all after you return?! 🙂
      I’m glad you liked the post … it means a lot to hear that.

  4. Mel

    Good for you 🙂 In medieval times a field was left fallow every few years so that it would be more productive in the long run – I think minds need that space sometimes too! xx

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Mel – Thanks for your comment. I love the message you left about fields being left fallow every few years so that productivity could be maintained / increased … that need for ‘time out’ is so true of every living thing I think! 🙂

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