Flaking and other f-words

So … obviously I haven’t been online all that much lately. In some ways I’ve missed it (mainly because I don’t get to catch up with the lovely people I know here), and yet in so many other ways I haven’t missed it at all. Aside from neglecting the blog, I seem to have become increasingly disenchanted with other online places too. Perhaps this phase will pass, maybe it won’t … either way, I’ve been thinking about some possible reasons for my current flakiness … (please excuse my use of all these f-words … ha ha).

On being a flake ...

  1. Fiction. I’ve been reading more, especially on the daily commute to and from work. Whereas in the past I’d spend time reading emails or checking twitter, I now seem to turn straight to my kindle.
  2. Film. A month or so ago I watched ‘The Cove’, a documentary about the annual dolphin hunt in Taiji, Japan. There are some things you just can’t unsee, and this is a documentary that really got to me. Most days I find myself reflecting on it.
  3. Fight. Flight. Freeze. I’ve often thought about how I apply the ‘Fight’ or ‘Flight’ response in different situations, but it wasn’t until recently that the ‘Freeze’ option has made itself known. Oh science, sometimes I really miss you.
  4. Family & Friends. I want more time to get annoyed at the people that are most important to me. Sounds strange, doesn’t it? But there is a logic. I spend too much time being irritated by people that ultimately matter very little – people like shop assistants, distant acquaintances and work colleagues. It would be nice to spend more of my time with people that really matter.
  5. Full-time. Working a day job is really exhausting, and I think this has been catching up with me more than usual.
  6. Freedom. In about 3 weeks, I’ll be taking a very long time off from my day job … I’m talking months, and months, and months. This has been a long time coming, and I am so looking forward to having more time for me.
  7. Focus. I’ve just had none recently, but I’ve been trying to do something each and every day to progress some writing projects that I’ve had hanging around for far too long. I figure doing a little bit each day is better than doing nothing at all.
  8. Fatigue. Aside from my usual problem of not getting enough sleep, I’ve just been feeling fatigued by the online world. Sometimes it feels like there’s too much noise and no volume control. That can wear a person down.
  9. Fitness. Going to the gym at lunch has been fantastic, and while it’s no doubt contributed to my tiredness, it’s a satisfying kind of exhaustion. It’s great to feel strong and fit again.
  10. Future. While I’ve got an overall idea of how the next year or so will unfold, the details are much more vague … but I figure that’s all part of the fun and adventure.

Anyway, I just wanted to drop by and say hello. I’m sure one day I won’t be as much of a flake as I currently am. More importantly though, I hope you’ve been well and that nice rather than nasty f-words are in your life too.  xx

36 Comments

  1. Hayley Cafarella

    Hello! I don’t think that being busy is the same as being flaky. Sounds like you have been up to some interesting and life changing stuff! That’s exciting, plenty of time for blogging when you’re done doing ;P xx

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Hayley – You are the sweetest. xx
      I think I’ve just felt that this has not been the best year for me time-management wise. Perhaps one day I’ll grow up and I’ll be super productive? 😉

  2. Fi Figueroa

    I think all these F words I should be applying to myself! haha Sounds like you’ve got your priorities in check. (While I am an insomniac with so much work to do) lol I love that you’re going to the gym at lunch! Definitely a good thing. (Must imitate)

    The online world misses you either way. ha! Yes, I went there.

    xo

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Fi – Feel free to borrow my ‘f-words’ any time you like … haha! 😉
      It’s all been a bit crazy this year, so I’m now starting to move my attention to 2012 … I hope you’re taking things a bit easier now! 🙂

  3. Felicity

    Fantastic!
    It seems like you might benefit from some more fun, frolicking, freedom, fantasies, fizz, fosicking, fluffiness and flip-flops.
    I’m sure that whatever you decide to do, it will be with great finesse and lift not only your spirits but many others too.

    Happy day Lovely!
    Felicity x

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Felicity – Yes, yes … I very much like your list of ‘f-words’ … they sound rather heavenly! 🙂
      You are so kind to say such nice things. xx

  4. Krystal/Village

    hi!! it’s good to hear from you. i’m going through something similar…i haven’t looked at blogs really in awhile and can barely post. i’m more drawn to real life at the moment i guess 🙂

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Krystal – Thanks for dropping by … but look at how tardy I’ve been in responding!?!?! Shocking, no? … Being drawn to real life is a very good thing. I hope you’re well. xx

  5. woolf

    pass the flake, anytime…
    i read you are well, and also none too well.
    well.
    staying focused is the thing (and plenty of f’s underway and ‘tween those lines of yours).
    you live in high hopes, taking time oFF.
    well done!
    n♥

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Woolf – You always see right to the heart of my words … how wonderful that is. I’m sure that more of the good ‘f-words’ will creep into my vocabulary next year as I put more distance between myself on the bad ‘f-words’ of this year. 🙂

      Take care. xx

  6. Monica {bohemian twilight}

    good to hear from you.
    although it doesn’t sound remotely like flakiness. just re-evaluating, finding your inner compass,…
    love that you’re turning to your kindle!
    i’m definitely an online person, but over the years i’ve become quite ruthless with where i spend my time. no more mindless FB, or such. not saying it’s all important stuff, but it does have to be adding to my day. otherwise, off goes the laptop.

    and wow, months off? excited? have projects in mind?

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Monica – Yes, yes … I like the way you put it ‘finding your inner compass’ … I think I’m still trying to do that, but I feel I’m getting closer to the right direction.

      My kindle is wonderful, it has returned me to the world of regular reading, which is great! 🙂
      I’m trying to become more ruthless with online time too – I savagely attacked my google reader and made it much more manageable …

      As for my time off, I plan on LOTS of writing and LOTS of travel. I’ve been trying to get a non-fiction and a fiction piece written for a few years now, so with all this time off I have no more excuses!! xx

  7. kellie

    I think you make some wonderful points actually, or fabulous, in keeping with today’s theme. But it is lovely to see you round these parts again.

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Kellie – Thanks so much for dropping by … one of these days I’ll get my blogging act together again. Here’s to more f-words of the fabulous kind!! 🙂

  8. maekitso

    It’s good to see you back Tracey.

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Brad – You are too kind sir, thanks so much.

  9. hila

    I can’t say that I haven’t missed you, but I do understand your logic, and it’s wise. I agree with so many points you’ve raised on your list. I’ve been feeling exhausted by the online world too, although I suspect this is because I’m just generally exhausted. Once I finish my big project (i.e. the book), I can’t wait to do nothing for a while.

    Take care tracey, and come and say hi here every once in a while 🙂

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Hila – Gosh, I’ve been so very tardy in replying to comments … I shall just have to say, it’s a case of better late than never. 2011 has been tiring for so many reasons, but I know you don’t need to be told that! 😉

      I hope you have a wonderful break over the holiday season, with plenty or resting and recharging the focus of the day. I’m so excited about your book!!!! Sending all my best wishes your way Hila. xx

  10. Camila Faria

    I think those are all very good reasons to stay away from the online world. I can honestly say that I feel the same way sometimes. But I’m really glad to hear from you, I’ve been missing your posts!

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Camila – It’s a hard balance sometimes to spend the right amounts of time between the online and offline worlds … perhaps it’s one of the challenges of modern life. You are always so sweet, thanks so much for being a regular visitor. xx

  11. Gabrielle Bryden

    No need to apologise 🙂 or explain. Sounds like you are living in the real world (what a good thing that is). I blogged about The Cove when the documentary won an Oscar http://gabriellebryden.wordpress.com/2010/03/09/the-cove-wins-an-oscar/ It is good to see that the movie has had a wide audience exposure. Don’t understand how they could do that to such an intelligent and beautiful creature (probably more intelligent than humans – the dolphins just can’t be bothered telling us 😉 and who can blame them). Enjoy your extended break from work.

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Gabrielle – Living in the real world has some wonderful advantages, but I do miss having the time and energy to blog as often as I’d like to. Perhaps I’m just getting lazier? Haha! 😉

      I just re-read your post on ‘The Cove’ when it won an Oscar … such an important documentary, and like you I just can’t believe how that happens. It was hard to watch, but so important to see.

      I hope you’re enjoying the school holidays Gabrielle and that Christmas spirits are high and happy! 🙂

  12. Michelle

    Sounds like a really great time in your life, at the moment reflective but with exciting things to come. Hope that you are able to share some of it with us out here at some point.

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Michelle – Yes indeed, I’ve got that whole looking forward and looking back kind of thought process happening (still) … so I’ll definitely be sharing any progress I make in working out where I’m heading and what I’m doing in this crazy thing we call life! 🙂

  13. Selma

    Sometimes I get sick of being online too. It is quite tiring. You’ve got to do what’s right for you.

    I’ve been following the Sea Shepherd on Twitter re. the dolphins in the Cove and last night I cried for about two hours because they killed a pod yesterday that had two bubby dolphins in it and the Mums fought valiantly for hours to save them. It’s as upsetting as hearing about human children being killed, if not more so. I don’t understand it, Tracey. It saddens me so much.

    Great to read a post from you and may I say that is one luscious looking Flake you’ve got there. Irresistable!

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Selma – I’m so glad to hear I’m not the only one who gets ‘over’ the whole online thing from time to time. It’s all about ebb and flow for me I think … though perhaps less of the flow and more of the ebb for me this year … haha! 🙂

      The horrors of ‘The Cove’ are so disturbing … I can’t believe I hadn’t heard about it sooner. I don’t understand it either Selma, the world can be such a sad and bewildering place at times. It makes me feel quite inadequate.

      Mmm Mmm, flakes are lovely chocolates! I shall have to send you a virtual one! 😉

  14. Rol

    There are far better things to do than hang round the internet all day. Good for you!

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Rol – Yes indeed! This online caper has its definite limitations over the real world. I do hope you’re well and that life is treating you fantastically! 🙂

  15. Caz

    Fight, flight and freeze, my everyday enemies. Hope you will soon be feeling fit and fabulous. I’ve missed you!

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Caz – Thank you. xx
      It’s been an interesting kind of year (but more on that soon). I’m convinced 2012 will be THE year of better f-words for me. I hope you’ve been well too.

  16. Galit

    Can I copy your post and publish it on my blog?.. All fits here as well (well, other then The Cove movie which I haven’t heard of but am going to fix this as quick as possible). I need more Real Life at the moment.

    Miss you, your post and the coffee breaks reminders though.

    P.S. I might be coming over to Brisbane on January. When are you taking off?

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Galit – Oh my dear, you are always a welcome echoer of my thoughts … then I’ll always be in the best of company. xx

      I hope you’ve been enjoying a much needed dose of ‘real’ rather than ‘virtual’ life. I know I have been (and really enjoying it). 🙂

      You’re coming to BRISBANE?!?!?! Yes, yes … I’ll be here well and truly. I would love to catch up for an actual coffee … let’s make that happen!!! Let me know your plans / travel dates. It would be so lovely to meet you. xx

  17. Lynne

    Firstly I would just like to say thank you for your kind words about Jewel, they were much appreciated.
    Like you, I haven’t been online so much of late, and haven’t been sure why. I think sometimes it looses it’s momentum. Sometimes life gets in the way.
    It sounds as though you have an interesting time planned coming up. I hope you keep in touch.

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Lynne – Oh you are so welcome re: Jewel. Living in a household where dogs and animals are a part of the family, I completely understand. xx

      I think you’re right about the momentum of life sometimes swinging us away from online activities … there’s all sorts of stuff we have to get done in life, so priorities have to adapt when needed.

      Take care, and I hope you enjoy the holiday season. 🙂

  18. Christine

    I love your f-words and your reflections. most inspiring!

    1. tracey (Post author)

      Hi Christine – Haha, I’m glad you enjoyed my ‘f-words’ … it was an interesting list to put together.
      I wish you a lovely holiday season (I hope you get a bit of a break). xx

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