Together at last! What a beautiful day you are 7th July 2007. We live in auspicious times indeed!! Do you know how special you are? Did you know that I long sensed your approach and held you often in my thoughts?
Captain Jack Harkness, that most delicious traveller of time and space has many a clever thing to say about life. But did he know how right he would be when he said:
‘The 21st century is when everything changes, and you gotta be ready‘.
He obviously knew just what I now know, but perhaps we were speaking of unrelated things…a trivial difference.
Dealing as he does with the interests of Torchwood, perhaps he speaks of things on a grander scale, actions with consequences that have global or universal impacts. No doubt he has knowledge of such things that I cannot and will never know or fully understand. I take comfort that at least one of us has an awareness of such matters and will act appropriately to the circumstances of the hour.
But did he know that it is on this day that everything will change for me? A personal day of reckoning if you will. Some time ago I remember reflecting on things that I had not yet done or achieved in my life – some minor things, some major things. As I committed those words to the permanency of the black and white world, I somehow sensed that it would be in this, the thirtieth year of my life that the world would shift, leaving me never quite the same again.
While my thoughts were looking to the past at what had not yet come to be, my eyes was also turned to the unknown future, to what was still yet to be. That was when we found eachother, seventh of July. Your grouping of sevens felt permanently real, incredibly significant, and yet somehow within my reach. I knew that just as I was moving towards you, you were moving towards me. A soulmate in the timeline of my life.
The world is in a state of constant change, the moon waxes and wanes, the sea rises and falls, the stars twinkle and die, the earth wears away. Such events are always unfolding around us, even though the results may be imperceptible to us on our short timescales. While such change may be slow, continual or hard to appreciate in human terms, this does not mean that it is not happening. Jack knows just what I mean.
Human change in physical terms can be more readily gauged. We see people do things such as grow taller, gain muscle, alter their hair colour, update their wardrobe or put on weight. But what about those changes that occur below the surface? Those things that are important to each of us. Those things that we want from and for ourselves in this life. Those things that perhaps we never share with others and only whisper softly to ourselves in the darkest hours of the night. Those things that may be regarded by others as unimportant or commonplace. What others think is of course of no consequence. Life sets us all on a different path and there is no way of judging another person’s journey from the outside as their experiences, hopes, triumphs and tragedies, can never fully be my own. I like to think that Jack would understand this too…he’s perceptive like that.
Some of the things that happen in life will be good, some will be bad. It’s not really up to us to choose how things will unfold. To be open to the good, will also open you up to the bad, that is simply the balance of life. Up until this year I had never made an overseas phone call (got to speak to the wonderful Fionn Regan some months ago in Brighton), never broken a bone in my body (overcame that with a broken ankle), never been published (some of my articles appeared in a free press publication) and never knew how to knit properly (a completed scarf is evidence of this rediscovered skill).
There are many other things that are on the list of what I still want to achieve this year. There are also things to be written on a list that I cannot see, a collection of things that will happen in the future that I had not planned for. But such is the unexpected experience that is this life. As dark and disturbing as it can sometimes be, I doubt whether I would change a single thing…even if I had the chance. We learn so much from the good and the bad without even knowing it, that I would hate to turn my back on any of the lessons that I have learnt. They have all been too important in bringing me to this point in time.
So here we are, you and me. You – this one unique day early in July at the beginning of the 21st century where everything will change. And me – well I’m here and I’m ready. Thanks for reminding me Jack.